FEBRUARY GUIDANCE: REMEMBERING OUR CONNECTION

2014 FEBRUARY GUIDANCE

Our connection is never lost. We are always moving with it, even if we have found ourselves in temporary darkness or suffering.

Having hundreds of inspirations a day that provide a sense of spiritual euphoria is not abnormal for me. Practicing with the power of gratitude alone keeps me in a place of feeling full of light. February however, was not a month of consistent inspiration for me. Instead, it was a month of bubbled up stuff and cleanup aftermath, of discovery and recovery, of shadow work, of feeling like a newborn, oh, and dental work.

I said, “I don’t know,” a lot this month, with uneasiness. Haunting nightmares mirroring my childhood sense of lack of control and lack of safety woke me up in the night. In my dreams, my teeth fell out, I was in plane crashes, and my house was robbed. I took these dreams as a sign that I might need a little help, and that I was in a space of processing. I prayed, a lot. I asked for help, and for clarity.

Someone wise once told me, “Be grateful that these lessons were in your dream space, and not your reality.” In other words, be grateful for the gentle space to have the crazy things happen that are not a part of your waking reality. Be grateful that your fears manifested in loony dreams instead of harsh physical realities, and make sure to extract the learning that is available from these dream-space experiences. Know that our dreams are a place we are processing deeply.

I got fearful and a little neurotic this month in real time too. I explored a few dark rabbit holes. I’m not sure if one person noticed, because as it does, the world kept going. While that could have given me confidence that everything was going to be okay, it gave me panic instead.

I had healing sessions, I meditated, I took it easy, I even went to Mexico. And I remembered a core truth to my being:

I trust the Divine.
I trust Divine order.

I just kind of detoured from my alignment with it for a few days, then weeks. So I waited until the end of the month to see if maybe, just maybe I’d be really through this and on the up and up with inspiration to offer you. And two nights ago I led a High School World-Changer Workshop. The topic (always divinely inspired) was “Exploring Connection and Loving Service.”

I reached out to my family and closest friends to ask, “What does it mean to be connected?” I thought I was asking on behalf of the students, and I am sure that the answers moved them, but in a matter of a couple of hours, almost every single person in the family and few friends I had texted answered me back with their quick gut response to the question. After the workshop, I realized that the information I asked for on behalf of my students, was also serving me. Receiving their perspectives and then discussing them with the students, and adding our own, literally lifted me right up and out of my funky cloud. It can be that simple sometimes: we ask a question, we get a little clarity, we process and discuss it, and we feel better.

There are times we are all going to lose our magic and feel like our butterfly wings have been touched by a toddler. We are going to feel like we are delicate and something brutal is tossing us around like a dog toy. We are not going to have the right gear for the weather. And this is where we grow. When the lights go off, and there is no clarity, find the opportunity to go to your core, your divine essence.  Go to the Divine, to move through your feelings, to use your intellect, to muster courage, to transition fear to faith, to remember that you are made of love, and to turn on the lights.

You are okay.
I am okay.
The sun will come up tomorrow.
Our hearts are beating.
Our dreams are still there.
Guidance is still available.
Stillness is still an option.
Breathe.
Ask for help.
Remember you are love.

Sometimes the “why” won’t be answered, we won’t get clarity, because sometimes the why is kept out of our reach on purpose. A mysterious darkness like this can remind us of how deeply connected we are and how we require that connection to grow.

Settle into your divinity, and gently press control, alt, delete. Starting again right now, and right now, and easing back into flow. Moving into alignment. Holding hands with the Divine, melting into oneness and the light is back on.